Wednesday, August 16, 2017

Lord, make us instruments of your peace, where there is hatred, let your love increase. Lord, make us instruments of your peace, walls of pride and prejudice shall cease, when we are your instruments of peace.

I've been struggling for a while now with social media and my relationship to it. For so long everything I posted was met with resounding positive feedback because, let's be honest, I had cancer.

Then came the campaign and election. We all experienced it. The internet was a sad place to be. The day after the election, I posted that I feared for the world my unborn son was going to grow up in, and was met with comments that I read as attacks on my character and choices. Looking back, I know they were meant to be helpful, but I was wounded and raw, so helpfulness wasn't high on the list of things I was feeling. Call me a snowflake. Please.

My response was to basically stop posting and distance myself from facebook. I even went back and deleted what I wrote the day after the election, because knowing it was there brought everything right back up to the surface. I thought, "How can I speak my truth in a place that will only respond in a way that causes my blood pressure to rise." It wasn't worth it to me at the time to put myself out there, so I put my head in the sand and quietly went about the business of parenting a newborn.

With each day the headlines got more and more outrageous, and I stayed silent. "Why add to the noise", I thought. Then came Charlottesville.

The day after the election I was told to stay in my lane, and be a "good person". That would be enough to ensure that my son would also be a "good person". Tell that to the father of the terrorist who mowed down Heather Heyer. "We do not know specifically where he learned those beliefs. He did not learn them at home."

Being quiet about what is happening in is precisely what got us to this point. I know that Donald Trump didn't cause the white supremacist rally. These hateful people were always there, lurking in the shadows. Trump just gave them the confidence to step out in the open and declare who they really were and what they stood for, and "we the people" elected him.

In my 16 years of voting, I have voted both democrat and republican. This is so far beyond big vs. small government. This is about our humanity. Are we the kind of people who will sit back and watch this unfold, or will we take a stand to stop white supremacy? Was the holocaust so long ago that we have already forgotten it's lessons? Or is this something we're willing to stomach because it doesn't directly affect us as white people?

"First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.
Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.
Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Jew.
Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me."
- Martin Niemoller

Wednesday, January 18, 2017

baby mine, don't you cry. baby mine, dry your eyes. rest your head close to my heart, never to part, baby of mine.

Hello Friends! I was about to type "Good Morning" but just realized that it is most definitely AFTER noon. Please forgive my lack of awareness of the time of day. You see, we have managed to keep a tiny human alive and well for a whole week now! Said tiny human is now happily snoozing on my chest, and I'm telling you, my heart is bursting with joy with every little snore.

Marshall William Meehan arrived at 8:57 am on Wednesday, January 11th, and we couldn't be more in love.

First family photo!
He is named for both of his grandfathers, and two of his great grandfathers. Little man has quite the legacy to live up to!

With his namesakes on his birthday.
In the past week, we have been amazed by our new found capacity to love. I feel like the grinch in that I know my heart has grown by at least 3 sizes. We're learning on the job, and I hope you forgive us one day for all the things you're having to put up with while we figure it out. You are very resilient and seem not to mind our inadequacy once it finally dawns on us whatever it is you needed in the first place.

Thank you for choosing us to be your parents. We love you so so much, and are so grateful that we get to experience each new day with you.


Mama and Daddy :)